Why i don't want to wake up?

In the mornings, i really don't want to wake up. I usually have really good dreams and my dreams are much happier than my reality.

Let me think. In reality i live a very very good life. Here are the pros:
- I have a husband that i love and he loves me.
- I am highly educated and a doctor.
- I have two healthy beautiful children.
- I live in one of the nicest and best neighbourhoods.
- I have WONDERFUL friends and am surrounded with lots of great people.
- My kids go to a great school.
- We just bought a vacation home, cash, and only 20 minutes away.
- We are renovating the minor details of the home and i am enjoying it.
- My family is healthy.
- We have two cars and everything we need.
- We have no debt.
- I am free.
- I am staying home with my kids and not working.

Cons:
- My husband just got DUI and i have to drive him every where. it means 45 minutes commute before i wake my kids up for school. then take my kids one at the time to school at different hours. then again another two kids to pick up at different hours and again 45 minutes commute.
- My husband is a very negative person and is always worrying about everything instead of looking for solution.
- I am dealing with re awaken childhood depression and am under treatment.
- My husband has almost no sexual desire thus very very low libido. I am extremely neglected and masturbate almost daily.
- My husband has been looking for fun outside our home and when he gets home, he is in a nagging and negative mindset.
- I just cut relationship with my mom that lives ten minutes away to help my healing with depression.
- I found out that my sever clinical depression is related to my mom being a Narcissist.
- I have a very hard time to focus and all my body hurts.
- My husband is one of the most passive people i have ever seen and i have to handle all the problems since he doesn't want to deal with anything.
- My husband is too weak and if he is exposed to problems, he either crashes, or ignores it and goes out and gets drunk.
- Our financial situation has become unstable after buying our vacation home. But i insisted on buying it before my husband blows all our money on new cars he kept trading and buying.
- We don't have much of a retirement plan. My husband likes to spend and every time i am feeling down with my depression and can not control the situation, he spends like there is no tomorrow.
- My husband have always liked to drink and i had to intervene many times. There was times i was sure he is becoming alcoholic. But he is denying it every time.
- I found texts from my husband to his hair dresser asking her to sleep with him( Last year).
- My mom is having a surgery and i really don't want to go see her. But i feel like i have to and i don't want to break her heart.

So here is some details about my life.

Now my dreams:
- They always include the most beautiful places with lots of water and adventures.
- It includes traveling and living next to the water on sunny beautiful warm days.
- There is ALWAYS a man involved that i don't remember his face, but he is truly caring about me and i watching for me and loves me.
- It feels like the fresh, exciting crush, love and he is taking care of me and make me feel wonderful.
- The adventures are exciting and is with him being there for me and with me and taking care of me.
- I LOVE MY DREAMS.

That is why i don't want to wake up. A stressful life which i need to be the driver starting morning till afternoon dealing with my lovely, but demanding kids and my negative and weak husband or my wonderful dream with the most wonderful man that loves you and truly cares about you when you are invisible and everyone else ignores you.

I think i am going to go to bed now. My dinner is ready for my family and i need my wonderful dreams. I am burned out with my reality.